I wanted to smoke again today on the way to work. But I didn't! I'm glad -- I know that his what was making it so hard for me to breath last week. Asthma (even mild) and smoking don't mix. Since I'm giving things up and torturing myself I am giving up the wine that has been helping me sleep. About a year ago I had to stop taking the mild antidepressant that helped me sleep. I was having side effects. Since that time wine and beer have served as substitute sleeping aids. I don't sleep unassisted. Well, my doctor prescribed another mild antidepressant for me and I took it last night. The good thing is that I can not drink while taking this so my diet will improve and weight loss may occur. That would be a blessing!

I slept pretty good. Normally I wake often from silly things like a train in the distance, my pug dog snoring in the hall, the greyhound rolling over in his kennel or a car driving down my street. You name it, it wakes me. I've got chronic pain so I guess I sleep lighter due to the lack of comfort. I'm hoping to start working out this week so that I wear out my body more and can sleep easier.

I'm trying to take some healthier steps in my life. Though this semester isn't too healthy for me -- I bit off more than I can chew! Linguistics taught by the Croatian grumpy lady who doesn't speak English well is a challenge. My online class is more difficult than it should be because I apparently skipped a prerequisite. Go figure. Sometimes I'm my own worst enemy!!! ;-)

Okay, the office is so cold right now I'm ready to start a small fire under my desk to warm my feet and hands.