The husband will once again not be getting a check this week. We thought he'd be able to take one, but no dice. The people who owe them money for jobs have not paid, so there is no money for payroll for the husband and his dad. I'm pretty flipping sick of this shit.

I don't remember the last time he got paid. I think it has pretty much been since February. Our entire savings / nest egg has been depleted and I'm behind on the bills. The mortgage was WAY late this past month and we suffered late fees to add insult to injury. I can't complain to my husband because he is killing himself to keep the business afloat. He has worked his ass off for his dad since he was 17.

Hello, twenty years later they are saddled with a business that has debt. If T (my hubby) leaves the business he leaves both his parents in debt and likely they will lose their house. So he keeps working there and is now pulling US deeper into debt. I have bills and tuition to pay and I can't even complain about it or I'll have a husband with a bleeding ulcer. He is so trapped. This makes US so trapped. I resent his family on this.

There were promises made so many times through the years and now there is no business to inherit. I wish I knew then what I know now... I would have convinced T not to work for his family. Construction is a dangerous business to be in. With the economy as it is in this state there really isn't hope for improvement. They don't have money to buy materials so what are they going to do if more jobs come their way? Ugh. This is an ugly situation.

I don't know what to tell him. There comes a point when you have to cut your losses. I think they need to declare bankruptcy on the business and take hourly jobs if they must. We need the income! My inlaws don't have it as bad since they don't have tuition payments, car payments, or kids to feed. It makes me crazy. If I complain I'll make T crazy.

I'm going to keep playing the lottery. At least if you play you can dream about winning. I don't even want big money. I just want enough to take time off work for school, find a teaching job, and pay living expenses and insurance. A small winning would take an edge off things. It would be awesome to pay off the construction business debt so T could just walk away. It would be awesome to pay off my debt so I could stop freaking out. I'd be fine if we were both brining in checks. It is so hard when we'd be better off if my husband just walked away. I will try not to resent them, but it is hard. Broken promises suck. Being trapped sucks more.