I'm apparently slightly more sane today. Yesterday's rant about my evil sister may have been influenced by a raging case of PMS. Not that my points are not valid (that she should complain about money if she is going to turn down opportunities for easy money, or that she has really pulled back on her involvement in the lives of my kids and that hurts them), but the way I expressed them yesterday may seem a tad psychotic. Just a tad.

This morning I'm in shock over how bad cramps can be. At least when I was in labor with my kids I was getting something cool for all of the effort. Right now my uterus is contracting and what is my bonus prize? Not fair. I can't go on the pill to regulate this darn thing. I'm a stroke risk due to my 2003 mini stroke. I also have the heart and blood pressure to worry about. Hence, no wonderfully regulating birth control pills. I never thought I'd miss them after hubby got fixed.

I never read that Red Tent book. Would my period be any nicer in a red tent?

I don't know if it is the raging hormones keeping me up, but I'm not sleeping this week. The night before last I was up until almost 3am cleaning the house. Last night I was up until 1am. This is not good when I must drag my happy ass to the office in the morning. I've been showing up with wet hair and bad clothes. The clothes are a direct effect of me gaining weight and avoiding laundry. (This weight thing is a drag. Today I will behave at lunch lately -- this has been my fast food downfall as of late.)

So I've cleaned the house like a nesting pregnant chick and still have not found my wallet. I must venture to the Secretary of State for new ID. Bummer. I hate going there -- it is basically the DMV here in my state. I'm giving up and replacing everything. I'll put a stop on all my cards too. This way I'll be sure to find my wallet as soon as I complete all the running around. That is how this game works, right?

But life is good! Why? Because I'm clutching a HUGE cup of Dunkin' Donuts coffee. This is the best damn coffee in the world. Drinking it makes me happy. It is the perfect temperature and I'm happy. I am blocking out the cramps and focusing on the caffeine goodness. Yay coffee!