Interesting :-)

My sister is due in June. I'm moving on to being happy for her and I'm letting go of hurt feelings. I will try to remember that somewhere inside her is the sister that I love. Right now she is a hormonal raging animal. She had something to go to on Saturday and could not go over to help my Dad. She told me this so that I would know his first call went to her. Isn't that just sweet? She asked if I went over to help him and when I told her I had, she trumped me with the "he asked me first."

Poor her. She doesn't realize that I don't mind if he asked her first. How do you break a habit of calling your daughter who is always available first? I have no trouble admitting that I have been busy and have limited time. The thing is that the less time I have, the more time I can find to do the things that reward me. Whether it is with the kids, the soccer teams, the high school where I'm putting in pre student teaching, or whether it is with my Dad -- I will make the time! Giving any time to any of these people reaps more rewards than I can describe. Sure, I have time -- what about in an hour? I have a few hours open this weekend... How about tonight?

The more I open myself up the more that come my way. I will not say no that which brings me joy. I'm sad for her that my sister feels she needs to belittle me to feel big. I'm sad for her that she wants to steal happiness from me. I'm thrilled though... because I am enjoying my Dad. I will not look back with regret that I didn't make the time. She seems to begrudge him the time that he requires. I want MORE time. I want more time with him and I want more ways that I can help him. The happiness it brings me can't be bought.

On another note....
My sister inlaw's wedding will not be next July. She has discovered she is pregnant and due to deliver the same day as my sister -- DOUBLE BLESSINGS FOR ME! I'm really excited for the SIL. Satan (my mother inlaw) is freaking out and giving the 34 year old unwed engaged mother total hell. I'm happy for her. Sure, she got the order wrong (the wedding will be in November now), but she is on her way to a new life. I like her fiance and I know she is excited about being a mom. Every child is a blessing. I'm glad we will be doubly blessed in 2007!