Is it lack of sleep?

I am still tired. I have had trouble sleeping since December of 2005. I gave in and went to a sleep specialist this past August, had my sleep study in October, I saw the sleep doctor again in December and now I'm waiting to have my 2nd sleep study next week (this time with exciting high tech equipment that they should have used the first time!). I am blessed with a 2nd sleep study because my first one was "inconclusive." What else is new? I'm always and enigma to doctors. I am a very pleasant patient. I follow directions well but I'm very hard to diagnose apparently.

I have thought I had the flu for the last 2 weeks. I'm seeing my doctor in the morning to find out what the heck the dealio is. A person does not maintain the flu for 2 weeks. I will go along thinking I'm getting better and then I'll have a sudden relapse of aches and exhaustion. I have always loved food, but for the past month I'm not excited about it. I don't want to eat. Who the heck am I? I don't know myself -- you would think I'm pregnant. I am not. Hubby was fixed a few years ago and I'm still having periods.

I don't know what else to do but to go back to my doctor on this. I have my sleep study next week, but then it will take 3 weeks for them to crunch the data before I can meet with the sleep specialist. I'm wondering if the nausea and exhaustion are lack of sleep.

I was so desperate for sleep Monday night that I went off the diet and drank some wine. I know booze sleep isn't the best sleep, but I needed sleep! So what happens yesterday? I was a zombie at my desk. I fell asleep in front of my computer. I threw up in the bathroom (I'm thinking maybe it was the wine since I hadn't had any booze in a while). I felt better in the afternoon and then collapsed on the couch as soon as I was home. This isn't normal -- even when you are running on empty on a crazy schedule.

I just need to make it through 12 more weeks. I am juggling a lot with the 3 classes, 1/2 day a week at the high school, the full time job, and the Sunday soccer assistant coaching. This is my last insane semester... I just need to be able to push through this so I can student teach this fall. I have been very lucky to have class cancellations (at the high school and at the university) at the EXACT moments I needed them. My luck can not carry on -- I need to get some sleep so I can function.

Once the semester is done I'll have time to work out and get healthy again. I've been eating healthy for over a month.... I just need to make it through this semester. Lack of sleep is increasing the pain and the steroid shots I got a few weeks ago are not holding it at bay. I don't mean to be a whiner, I just need to push through this just a little further and then I can get back to the exercise which I know will make me feel better. I know that step 1 is fixing the sleep. I will be happy when I am not so tired.