Is this how you people feel every day???

Friday night I returned to my favorite night spot -- the sleep clinic. Oh yeah! The respiratory therapist hooked me up with a CPAP machine. Can I just tell you that I could not believe the difference? I was WONDER WOMAN on Saturday. I kid you not, I felt like a super hero. My buddy John (the respiratory therapist) told me I'd feel better, but WOW!

I went into Friday night at a severe sleep deficit due to the massive amounts of work and school work I had going on last week. I'd done the all nighter thing and was a mess. The next night I did the anxiety thing and was a mess (hey, I was throwing a baby shower and I was mad my teaching lesson wasn't tops, anxiety was warranted!). Anyway, I was super tired so sleeping with the CPAP machine was no issue.

In the AM my new friend John removed 20 million electrodes from my body and declared me a good patient. He found me fascinating though -- my legs twitch at almost exactly every 22 seconds when I'm in phase 1 and 2 sleep. This wakes my brain and causes me to come out of sleep into a more alert phase for a few moments, then I try to get back to sleep. He said most people who don't ever see REM sleep are pretty depressed. IMAGINE THAT!

I actually got REM sleep on Friday night -- wow! I was then able to pull off shower prep for Sunday (the double shower I was throwing at my Dad's for my sister and brother's wife -- I hate the term sister inlaw... negative connotations are connected my hubby's sisters, forgive me). The shower went really well. My mom's friends from various social circles loved coming together and celebrating a happy event while remembering the friend they have lost.

A friend of Mom's said to me "Every one of us feels that we lost our best friend. Your mom was a best friend to all of us. Being together we all understand each other and what we have lost. It is good to have people who understand how much you miss her. It is good to celebrate together that something so good is happening in your family."

And that is how it felt. It felt good to celebrate the wonder of these babies. It felt good to see my Mom's friends in my parents house. We felt her there with us. We missed her. We celebrated life. My Dad stayed for the shower (a brunch) and served Mimosas to everyone. It went well.

I am grateful and relieved. We pulled it off! I was told to expect a call from a respiratory therapist to set up a CPAP machine for me at home. If I have the energy that God gave me to pull of that shower every day, I will be able to move mountains! If that is how normal people feel every day.... WOW! Get down with your bad selves! I can't wait to be like YOU -- living the dream! In reality I think it was the prayers that got me through.... but I'll happily wear that sexy sleep device if it makes me feel that good. That and I can do a mean Darth Vader impression....

I walked on campus today. I had to turn something in. I thought of those poor students on another campus... I pray for them. I pray for the students at Virginia Tech. I'm an old student, but I'm still a student. I wish those students still had their innocence. I wish their world was still care free..... I pray for them.