I hate Mother's Day. Dare I admit it? I dread it coming and I'm happy to see it going. I had a great mom and each year I still grieve her loss and wish this day didn't exist in my world. Let the rest of the world celebrate, just let me hide while you do it so I don't have to miss her so. I wonder if I will ever enjoy this holiday again? For those who still have your mom alive please hug her and appreciate her! It is so hard when your mother is gone.
On a brighter note -- my dad is gaining more and more of his independence back. I'm so proud of him. He has fought so hard to survive! I am once again inspired by the example my parents have given me. If I were only half as good as them!
We are loving our new dog -- somehow she is the perfect calming influence for the fawn pug while at the same time bringing our docile greyhound out of his shell. I love our trio of silly dogs. I also would recommend to anyone the leash splitter that allows you to walk two dogs on one leash. This is the best invention EVER for use with 2 pugs. I can't yet walk all three dogs at once (I'd be doomed doing so if they greyhound spotted a rabbit). As of now walking is a two person activity.... I think that is a good thing.
Little time for blogging lately but at least I know it is because I'm busy living (vs. crawling in a hole due to pain or depression). Pain is worse but I know it is due to weather changes, lack of excercise, and stress. All of this will improve so I can make it through! The only time depression is really getting to me is when I focus on the grief vs. the joy of life. I think I'll focus on the joy more... how about you?
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I know exactly what you mean about not having a mother. I went to her grave yesterday, left a long stem rose and had a nice chat. I was very weepy, as I also stopped by my grandmothers.
The worse was Christie going to her mother's grave. She wanted alone time, we respected that. Nothing breaks your heart more, to see a 14 year old, sitting cross legged, with a dozen roses in her hand, silently communicating with her mom. She was very weepy and I gave her lots of hugs, but the pain will continue.
I try very hard on Mother's Day to focus on the girls and how excited they get about Mother's Day and the joy it gives them, to do things, give me gifts, etc. for me. So in that way, I'm focusing on the joy.
Focusing on the joys in life is such a better way to be. Not easy, but it really can bring peace.
Wishing you peace. So glad your father is doing better!
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