It has been 5 weeks since my Mom was killed by cancer. I'm not sure how I'm doing. Sometimes I think I'm in denial because I'm coping and can't believe it. Having 2 kids forces me to think about them and not our great loss.
My sister is still making me nuts. I am having a difficult time being around her because she's always saying "my mom" this and "my mom" that. She was my Mom too and my sister is not an only child. My sister is getting married this summer so everything is about her, and that is fine. My only problem is that she is not an only child and my brothers and I suffered a loss here too. I bought her all the kitchen stuff on her bridal registry. Now every time she walks into her kitchen she'll have to think of me. Hee, hee. Yes, I'm apparently a pretty evil person.
My sister is grieving with anger and it is VERY much focused at me. I'm not paranoid. My husband and a friend have noticed. The friend is close to my sister as well, but clearly sees what is going on. I'm blessed to have a friend to count on that gets it. I can't say a darn word to my sister because it would just blow up in my face.
Biting my lip till it bleeds.
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