Well, it has been a rough road. Mom passed away on 3/26. She died just before 11pm -- in time to make it to Easter Vigil Mass (she had worked in RCIA and loved that mass). I was there. It was difficult. She had been so ill. I am glad she is no longer in pain. I have faith in eternal life through our Lord. Earlier in the evening she had greeted Helen. Her mother was Helen and she always called her Mom by Helen. How nice that her Mom came to get her.
I had not wanted to leave that night, it felt wrong even though hospice had said nothing was imminent. Her time came, I told her I loved her and to go. I wish I'd said "we" instead of "I." No do overs. I am glad that I told her to go -- I know it was God talking through me because I never would have thought to say it, but it felt right. I have always had faith, but it is stronger now. Prayer has been a comfort and a rope to cling to. I'm blessed in many ways, but I really miss my Mom already. It is hard knowing her unconditional love is gone.
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