Even the dog has learned the wonder of the heating pad. I walked away and look who took over. She is a bright one.

I got to go back to grief counseling tonight. I'd been too sick and it was good to see everyone and hear the talk. The small group discussion was nice and eye opening. My sister has no guilt and no regret -- just loneliness. I have loneliness, but more guilt and regret about my Mom's death. I feel at times like it should have been me. Other times I can only think of the things we never got to do (but were always going to do when my kids got a little older and I was done going to school). Mom always said not to worry, we'd do stuff together again and that now wasn't the time. "We have plenty of time!" was what she would say. I've learned we don't. I don't live like I do anymore.

I'm hurrying up to finish school so I can have more time. I'm taking two classes vs. one next semester and I hope to take a spring class too. I want to finish getting my certification. I want to live life NOW. I'm going to let classes interrupt work hours -- it will get me out sooner and I'm pretty much without a choice at this point. I only have so many classes left to take and they are only offered at certain times. Time to get on with it!!!