Today I am going back to the doctor. My Dad is taking me since driving would not be a hot idea with the meds I am on. It is strange going to the doctor with my Dad. Typically if I were this sick my Mom would take me. It is strange how Dad's role has expanded since we lost Mom. I miss her a lot, but I'm glad to get to know my Dad better. He is a great guy. He frustrated the crap out of my husband when they spoke last night at church. Dad was to the extremes -- freaked out about my health and if I'm getting good enough care while at the same time freaked out about work and if I'll be pulling my load this week. I won't be pulling my load this week.

My one brother was hoping I would help him catch up on his visits. My other brother doesn't even realize he could step in and help with some of these visits. It is frustrating to not be in charge because before I worked with family I was in charge and could better utilize available resources. Since I'm the low man on the totem pole I am discouraged from even making suggestions. This can be frustrating when my work background does make me qualified in some areas more than others. Sticking me with the mundane day to day stuff is not the best way to utilize me. Oh well. I chose to work for family so this is what I get. Too bad they don't see that my organizational and training skills could be a greater asset.

Anyway, I'm going to try and get cleaned up for the doctor. I've really let myself go since being sick. Yikes. Hopefully I'll get some answers and some energy back. I'm wiped out.