2005 -- Was this the worst year of my life???

I am nominating this as the worst year of my life. It was this year that I lost my mom. She died of cancer after 3 years in remission from uterine cancer. It came back as a brain tumor and I watched her go from healthy and happy to suffering and dying. She was the bravest person I have ever and will ever know. Her faith was strong going into the crisis and it only grew as she drew closer to the end. She suffered in horrible ways and was taken from us in just 12 weeks vs. the 6-9 months the oncologists had predicted.

During the illness my relationship with my sister disintegrated. I was the maid of honor in her wedding despite this and therefore I bit my tongue at every opportunity. I am no longer able to speak as my tongue is swollen from the bites.

I discovered that the mini stroke I had in the past took more memory and cognitive skills than I had realized. Taking tests for school is much more difficult now.

Business has sucked, I don't like work. I am afraid I'll be looking for a new job in 2006 and the economy sucks.

I caught the flu, bronchitis, and pneumonia this year. I have gained back a good chunk of the weight that I had lost. I am not exercising like I should. My heal is healing but my knee and chest hurt still.

On the up side I've grown closer to my father, my faith has increased, I am closer to my best friend, my kids are good people, we live in a nice house. I know better days are coming. There are good people in our lives who have prayed us through the worst of it. God is good and little things show me this all the time. I pray that the world finds more peace in 2006 and that the people in the media bring us more hope and less disappointment.

I wish any readers many blessings in the new year.
Hold onto the now and find the good in this moment.