Yippee! Still not smoking! I am proud of me that this held up through the weekend. I was at a party and really wanted a cigarette. Heck, I still want a cigarette! Stress levels have been pretty high as of late and a smoke would be a comfort... but I will rise above. I had too much fun at the party so yesterday was a complete loss.

My eating has been out of control since I stopped smoking. I would be so happy to start losing weight again! My knees would love me. Vacation is next week and I can't wait. Hopefully my summer clothes fit!

Sometimes men frustrate me. I work with family -- my father tells me to do things a certain way and then doesn't tell my brother who ends up irritated with me. I snap at my brother not know my dad didn't clue him in. Their failure to communicate make me look like the ass. Hate that.

I did not win the lottery this past weekend. Something about being with all those stay at home moms at the party made me really jealous. They work out and look fantastic. I'm jealous, I hate when I'm green with envy. I can't imagine not having kids at home, not working, not going to school and not spending half my life at doctor appointments!!! Shit -- I'd be less tired and less lazy if I could get one damn night of sleep! I can not imagine having that much free time. One of the moms found out I was taking 2 classes on top the career thing and she said "No wonder you look so tired by the end of the week!" No shit lady, I'm fricken tired at the beginning of the week!

I love my husband and would not trade him for the world. I'm glad I don't have the pressure on me to have perfect boobs and abs. I sure would love to have the time to work out though... I used to work out a minimum of 4 times a week -- I miss it and how good I felt. My new goal is to get back to exercise so I have more energy. Hopefully that will make me crave comfort foods less. Hopefully!

My sister is avoiding the topic of finishing going through my mom's stuff. Hmmmm....... Looks like it is time for me to start pushing again. Yippee! She asked if I had ever blogged about her when we chatted on the phone this weekend. I told her "Yes, and I included your full name, address, and social security number." What a dumb ass. Like I would invite her to read my blog -- I told her to get one since it is a healthy outlet to write. Not like I need her reading what I write about her!!! Silly girl!!