So I broke down and talked to my sister. She was much more reasonable and accommodating this time. We are going to go through mom's stuff this weekend. I'm relieved. I'm also relieved that religious education is only 2 more weeks! I told my sister and she acted all bummed out that she wouldn't get to pick the kids up anymore. Well how strange is that?

I have another Linguistics exam today. Ugh. I got a B on the last one but this one is the retake for the whole class on the one we all failed. I simply don't get it. I'm going to try my best.

I'm not getting a puppy after all. I irritated the breeder by asking about health concerns. I unintentionally really insulted her. I had heard breeders are a touchy bunch. I have learned my lesson. Yikes. It was not meant to be is all that I can think. I don't need more complications in my life as much as I'd love a puppy. I just wish I hadn't offended her -- it freaks me out that someone could get the wrong impression so easily.

Written words are more powerful than spoken -- I'll phone breeders in the future vs. email. She was trying to get me to take a pup with a cleft mouth birth defect. I expressed worry over
long term health and vet bills -- with my hubby not bringing home a paycheck money is on my mind right now. I could swing the cost of the pup, but right now radical vet bills are not on my agenda. I would do it for my pets that I already own, but would not take one on right now to add to my worries. Reading my message again I realize that I could have expressed my concern with more tact. I forgot this pup is like her baby. It was thoughtless and I apologized.

She hates me. I hate being hated. How weak is that of me! I would have liked to go back to her for another pup in the future. She didn't get my apology email -- she had blocked her email from receiving anything from me. She said her vet bills were 10,000 last year and that she'd place the pup in a home that loved her. How sad for this pup she won't get to be spoiled by my family. How sad that this breeder (who is a good breeder) hates my guts now. Wonder if I'm black listed... I want another pup like Millie in the future -- I'll just take it on when money is less tight.

Wish I could have kittens but I'm allergic. Sure am jealous of someone I know! What I love about the small breed I was going to get was that they are real snugglers. I wonder how breeders are -- do they black list you once you piss them off?

I was sick to my stomach over this all night -- unable to study. How stupid am I? As I drove to work this morning enjoying the sunshine I realized how blessed I am that I'm so worried about something THIS petty.

Have a wonderful day!