I am excited that my son is almost done with his big school projects. He has chosen to make them a battle and I'm tired. I think he is doing this because he knows I'm tired and he wants my attention. This past week has been exhausting and I really missed time with just me and the kids this past weekend. Having class, the wedding, and spending Sunday with T's family really killed my time with just us and the kids. I hate these days in the spring when you are rushing, rushing, rushing. I only have 2 more weeks of class and then the rushing sensation should subside. There isn't enough coffee on earth to make me feel awake right now.

The money thing is freaking me out. I was able to pay the home equity loan payment (this line has been for much needed home improvements as well as tuition). I was also able to make the mortgage and car payment. I'm screwed on utilities though. I hate this. I miss being able to just pay things. We do not live extravagantly. It is frustrating that T still isn't getting paid. I'm already so tired of this. We will never be able to afford a sitter this summer if he doesn't start bringing home a paycheck. Ugh.

I had protein for lunch today -- no carbs. I'm still tired as hell. What is up with that??? I don't think the rain and the cold weather are helping either. We need some sunshine here! I'm glad we at least had some last month. It was enough to help pull you through the doldrums that dome at winters end.

My class I'm taking right now is Small Group Communication. Apparently it is to help with my skills in managing small groups (i.e. students in my classroom). I was really apprehensive last weekend because my professor intimidated me with her constant bragging about her public speaking experience. That and her anecdotal stories about how dumb students can be started to intimidate me. I'm wondering how she judged our first presentation. Hopefully she was not too harsh and I am over-analyzing her comments.

Anyway, looks like the people in my group are actually not slackers! Yippee! I would die if I had to do these projects by myself!

Many miles to go today... eating is better, smoking is worse, exercise is still not happening (I blame the weather).