What is with this sudden energy drain I get after I eat lunch? Today was salad and a bottle of water. Now I'm ready to sleep on my desk hugging my computer monitor for warmth. Doesn't that sound good right now? A nap would hit the spot I tell you! I don't care that the desk surface is hard, it looks damn comfy right now.

I went to the chiropractor today and he helped a little, but this cold damp weather is great for making aches. He wants me to get my hair tested so he can advise me better on supplements. I think I need to just take regular multi vitamins, eat right, and exercise. If I do that I know I will feel better.

I will lose this weight. I will exercise. I will feel better. I'm within a year of completing classes and I'm just over a year from student teaching. I would love to present myself more professionally in a smaller body. Between that, my long term health, and the wedding; I have some good reasons to lose this weight. I know when I do I will feel better physically and emotionally when I drop some pounds. I ate salad today and drank less to help me sleep yesterday. My goal for tonight is no beer or wine sleep aids. I want to try and go to sleep early since I wake up every day now at 4 am. Usually I can go back to sleep, but why am I waking at 4 am? I don't get it. I'm sleeping pretty lightly apparently.

No pictures to post of flowers or plants lately. I need to trim back all the spent blooms and pop in some annuals. I love gardening. I hope to have more time for it. Why does taking a spring class make you feel like you are racing in a marathon? It is just 2 days a week, long days, but still -- just 2 days. I'm all out of sorts. I want my house to look neat and clean. I want my yard to be pretty again. I guess I just need more hours in the day.

I'm so restless and anxious right now. I bet it settles down when this class ends. I would also feel so much better if T were taking a pay check. Money problems make my stomach a mess. I guess that is part of my problem today too.

So much for not complaining! YIKES! Today has been a whine fest! Oh well, I needed to vent so here I am. Goals for today -- drink water! Exercise! Study!