My pain level is really bad right now. The neck, back, shoulders, arms and hands are all my enemies. I wish this were not the case. Pain makes me very tired. I'm exhausted and that is after sleeping well last night. I want to pull myself together before I go home.

I want to be fun with my kids after work instead of tired or grumpy (which is what I'm like when my pain is high). I am working on it though. I feel a little better about myself today since I stuck to healthy eating and have not smoked. I need to be strong on this so I can get my momentum back.

When I'm on a roll I do well. Unfortunately I've been rolling the wrong way since my sister's wedding. Now I've got rolls of fat too! YIKES! Today is the first day of me having it together. If I can behave for a full day my chances of getting back on track are good. Wish me luck!

The ugly flower is a perenial that I planted early last year. I've waited a year and a half for a bloom out of this plant. it is a large green leafed thing that was supposed to produce lovely blue flowers. It has taken a year and a half for the above meager display (which my camera apparently didn't want to photograph). For this meager bloom I have tolerated a HUGE weed looking plant. One more year -- that is all you get!