2am

It is 2am and I'm wide awake. I'm too old to be pulling these all nighters anymore!

I would have been fine if my printer had worked correctly last night -- but no, I was up all night. I slept from 6:15 to 8:15 and looked like hell when I rolled into work. My Dad and brothers were really nice to me and sent me off to have my final project bound during work time. I am blessed that they were so supportive -- I was pretty much at the end of my tired ass rope!

I handed in my project and felt a ton of weight fall of my shoulders. It is so nice to be done and to be proud of my work. My last class is tomorrow and I'm SO happy! This semester was a tough one. I put in 50 some hours observing and helping at the high school (mostly 1.5 hours at a time at the start of the school day). The thing that is crazy is that the high school is 30-45 minutes away (traffic is fun). It is a great school and well worth the drive to experience, but boy that is a lot of driving to add to a work week. I worked full time throughout and I took 3 classes.

Next semester I'm doing my high school field work one day a week for a half day. My family is okay with it and I will maintain my sanity better if I'm not running out there 3 days a week. I have 2 night classes (Wednesday and Thursday nights) and an online class. Call me crazy, but I'm feeling it is doable for one more semester. After that I have 2 general education classes to take spring and summer -- and in the fall I will student teach! YIPPEE!

I'm also getting back on track with the diet. I'm starting back to that program I did almost 2 years ago. I was successful and felt great on the HMR weight loss program (combination meals, fruits and veggies, shakes). I got off track when my Mom passed away and then gained it all back after my sister's wedding which was 6 months later.

It was strange how you could put your grief on the shelf to get through the wedding, and then it all hits after. I basically went into depression and tried to eat my way out through comfort foods. Not a good plan, but it felt felt good at the time :-) I gained back all the weight I'd lost and then some.

I'm uncomfortable at my present weight, but had dreaded the drive to the hospital (45 minutes) to start back at the HMR program (I've done weight watchers, the basic premise is the same in terms of balance and nutrition -- the difference is that you have shakes to get you through those rushed times). I didn't feel I could commit to once a week meetings that required that kind of drive -- between weigh in, meeting and drive that is 3 hours one night a week. Not realistic in my present scholastic crunch. But I really wanted to start back at the program and feel healthy again.

So yesterday Hubby tells me he wants to do it -- he's done the research and there is a call in program now (45 minute meeting over the phone once a week). I'm in! He wants to lose weight too and so we start together next week. We thought it best to just get started vs. staying fat through the holidays. Wish us luck! It feels good to have this decided. I'm excited -- maybe that is why I can't sleep?

My brain just won't shut off! It is hard to relax and sleep when you've been super crunched for time. (I see the sleep doctor on Wednesday for my sleep study results). Maybe now that I've blogged it all out I can wind down and get a little sleep.

I'm at the high school in the AM tomorrow and have class tomorrow night. My last Marathon Tuesday for the semester -- can I get a whoop whoop? (my daughter always says that, I couldn't resist -- her "whoop, whoop!" cracks me up!)