Tuesday's Child Sleeps

She already is a good sleeper! I got to give my brother's daughter a bottle today. She was an angel (despite not wanting to burp for me). What a joy to enjoy these newborn moments with my new nieces!

I feel as though I missed this with my first niece as she was born right between my two kids (who are only 12 months apart). My darling nephew also seemed to escape me in a way... he always has seemed like a magical little creature that I didn't have much access to... he danced around the edges of our family, but I never felt like I had a chance to really hold him and wonder at his beauty.

I wonder if this was about a marriage that was failing... that, and my mother's illness and passing. I remember him bringing us smiles that we needed. We were all at a wedding the night of his birth... we saw him the next day, but that isn't the same. It didn't feel like his Momma wanted us there... so I edged away. I wish I hadn't.

This past week was amazing. I am grateful for family who allowed us in. I am freakish among my people -- we are really crazy private as a norm. I like people to know me and everything about me. My family, they are not like that. Sharing... um, not so much. This week we shared. I am grateful. It filled me to wonder at the miracle of life. It soothed me to hold tiny messengers from God. "There is hope! See! Look at this wonderful baby I sent!!"

Sleep baby -- you have such a wonderful future ahead!!!