Get that mammogram... PLEASE do not wait.

My best friend (who's hubby has gone nuts since she asked for a divorce) has just had the pleasure of her first mammogram. She got the call last week from the doctor's office. "Come on back. We want to have you do another mammogram and an ultrasound, we don't like the look of your first one." Your heart stops. You don't believe the words you are hearing. How can it be? No known lumps. No warning.

She went back in at the end of the week. The results were more conclusive. Apparently it doesn't look exactly like cancer, but it is NOTHING near normal. She goes to the cancer specialist this week. Descriptions of "solid mass, spidering type spread" do not sound reassuring. She has 4 boys 8 and under. She is rail thin from the stress of her insane hubby. Now she has a whole other demon to wrestle.

Why? Why does this happen to good people? Please let it be confined. Please do not let it be too late. Please watch over my friend. It is my time to carry her. She carried me through the valley after my mom passed. She listened, she encouraged, she carried me through the darkness.

Her mother will take her to the doctor Friday. Her mother will hold the steno pad and take notes. I will teach school and pretend my heart is not breaking. I will pray for the slim chance that this is all just a nightmare. I will pray that she is not about to face a life and death challenge. I will count blessings and live in the now. That is all we have. Right now. I kissed, hugged, and held my kids today. I kissed, hugged and held her kids last week. Please let this be the nightmare that I wake up from.... please let her only be divorcing an ass and not starting a fight for life. Please....

Please?