Another holiday passed and I was again lonely for my mother. It has been 5 years since she passed and her absence still looms large over every family gathering. We have had 2 new family members marry in and 4 babies born into our extended family since she passed. How can there be 6 new family members who do not know how great we were with Mom on our team?
I would like a new family picture with these wonderful new additions to our clan... but it is unbearable to contemplate a family photo without her. I don't like having my picture taken, but I know I will treasure a portrait of the extended family when we someday find the courage to have another taken. I just struggle with it; so I don't take the initiative. I also know it will hurt my dad to have a formal family picture taken without her....
So, nobody mentions a family picture despite the fact we all would like the new members of our family to be in the picture that hangs on our walls. This is the part of grief that does not fade over time... it still cuts like the sharpest knife.
2 comments:
{{Hugs}}
I often shy from the camera and then think of the very few pictures my kids will have of me if something ever were to happen.
Cherish that photo and make sure that are plenty of you.
~Scout
that will be part of your healing -- you need to take those photos.
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