Where to begin?  It has been a crazy year.  My son who has a sleep disorder developed an eating disorder and attempted suicide one year ago this week.  Wonder Boy is way too intellectual.  If you don't function with faith in this world logic will kill you.  He attempted suicide and was very nearly successful.  We have spent the year in psychiatric treatment, eating disorder treatment, and 24/7 death watch.  He cut, he wallowed in depression, and he fought to get his life back.  He fought for US more than himself.  I have not blogged about this but I have journaled through our struggles.  You can know the symptoms, see the signs, plan with professionals, and STILL fail your child.  May no other parent walk this path.

I have learned to be patient.  I have learned to trust God.  I have learned that you can't fight the battles your child is destined to fight.  You can support.  You can pray.  You can learn.  You can help.  You can pray...  but you can't take the cross from your child's shoulders no matter how much you desire to do so.

We have made it a year.  He is still alive and working on his coping skills.  We are blessed.  I hope that there are positives that can come from this --- such as my being a resource to others walking on this path.  Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.  If you are considering it please reach out for help.  The aftermath is unfathomable.... Let people help you  YOU ARE NEVER ALONE in your struggles.

We are blessed he is still here and fighting.  He is a Wonder Boy!