Today was the first Tuesday of the month. First Tuesday's are special because my Mom's friends have mass said for her at our church. I have struggled to remember to go on the right day these last few months so I was thrilled to attend today.

The sun shone through the church window right on my head and warmed me. They really need to turn up the heat for morning mass in the chapel -- everyone kept their coats on. After mass I learned that one of husbands in my parent's group has been diagnosed with kidney cancer and is recouping in the hospital from surgery. He is one of those healthy jogging skinny people -- how unfair that you take care of yourself and still get cancer. Cancer sucks. It feels like a eerie presence creeping around us.

Mom's friends go out for coffee after mass but I can't go because of work. My Dad went with them though, and I was glad for this. I can't wait to have more flexibility at work someday -- it is impossible to take time without feeling guilty for stiffing my brothers. Work is pretty stressful. I can't wait to finish getting my certification and begin teaching. I need to register for classes at the end of the month -- I'm running out of options that won't interfere big time with my working hours. It should get interesting!

Where did vacation go? How is it that I'm back in the deep of it again so soon?

On a brighter note -- I am still not smoking. I am off sleep and depression medicines. I didn't drink to help me sleep last night. Wonders never cease!