A new day dawns and I weigh myself. I'm up another fricking pound. Dammit. No more bagels for breakfast. Self discipline needed, must find self discipline. Didn't smoke yesterday. Maybe that is a step? No bagel this morning. No smokes. I am needing something....

Afternoon has hit and I am feeling better. The coffee held me until lunch at Subway. I ate as I drove so I could hit the nursery for FERNS to hand on my front porch. My house was built in 1917 and has an open front porch that demands hanging ferns each summer. I bought them today. It was kind of dumb to buy them so early (since I will have to bring them in each night until I am certain it stays above 55 degrees), but I could not help myself. I like to feel like there is a lot of life around me. The plants do that for me -- blooms and buds give me crazy amounts of satisfaction. Watching the sun kiss and strengthen plants makes my heart beat. Watching the kids and dogs play in the yard makes me feel more alive -- as does playing with them! I'm ready for summer. I need the revitalization the freedom from school brings. I love letting the kids stay up late. I love sitting in the rocker on the front porch waving to neighbors as they stroll on by me. These are the moments when I feel life is so good. Spring makes so many promises of these summer good times. I'm ready!!

Today's my hubby's birthday. I'm so glad he was born. Too bad I'm so crappy at coming up with a good gift!