This week I have a funeral to attend and a wedding and I have nothing to wear to either. My clothes do not fit and yet I ate a bagel with butter for breakfast and McDonald's for lunch. WTF? Am I a picture of self destruction or what? Speaking of self destruction, why am I putting off my doctor visit for sleep meds? Instead I self medicate with beer. I'm smarter than this. I bought a pack of smokes yesterday too. I'm off my rocker apparently. I know once I get back in the groove of eating healthy and working out it will be better. Why am I putting this off? Why do I keep telling myself that I'll start tomorrow?