Sometimes you wonder where the solid ground has gone.... I feel very out there right now. I am desperately trying to wrap up my work so that I can start student teaching next week. I am desperately trying to gather my materials and wits about me to begin student teaching. I meet with my cooperating teacher tomorrow and really need to have my plans together. I am writing the course syllabus for each class tonight. I've started some tentative calendar mapping... I've been combing the Internet for ice breakers that are not the same old, same old.....
It turns out my ear infection isn't an ear infection -- it was the migraine! How about that? Nothing like a stress headache shooting pain out your ear and down into your jaw! Silly me. I went to the chiropractor after seeing my primary care physician -- what a wonderful man he was for improving the status of this headache. YAY for him! I used to think chiropractors were witch doctors. They are not. At least MINE isn't!
I want to rock at student teaching. I wish I was more confident. I feel like I've forgotten all I have learned. It isn't easy remembering all of it when I've been taking these darn classes since 2001. I feel like my split focus (family, work, school) has made it difficult to retain as much as I'd like. I'm betting it will be good once I get going... these first few weeks will be quite a challenge. There is so much information out there on the Internet -- why is so much of it elementary and so little high school focused? Don't high school teachers need ice breakers? Say a prayer for me if you think of it -- prayer always to helps!
Poor Hubby has a final in his class Thursday. He is changing schools (going from radiology technician training to wanting to be a nurse -- Go Hubby!). He has to do some running to get transcripts in and classes registered for this fall.
Tomorrow is schedule pick up for Super Girl at the middle school. It is picture day as well. Hubby also needs to call and get the roof fixed. And he gets to get my car fixed (I'm driving his car to help motivate him on this). We missed the deadline to sign up for religious education yesterday -- he gets to call on that too. He is starting to appreciate what it is to be a mom. I love him and am glad he is trying harder this week to multi task.
I'd help him but I'm traveling for work and meeting with my cooperating teacher at 6pm. Hubby is on his own! I am on my own freak out train this week :-) I will be happy to be done with work on Friday! I can't imagine what it will be like to only have one job -- student teaching. I'm going to keep up on work email and stay informed, but that is nothing compared to the kind of pressure I've been managing.
I am glad for the challenges but look forward to a few weeks from now when I'm acclimated to a high school teaching routine. Isn't it crazy how the fear of the unknown is paralyzing?
3 comments:
a few years back I thought I had an ear infection - pain in ear and thru jaw.
it was pressure from clenching jaw.
I have an "nti" that fits in the front of my mouth and holds my mouth open at night so I can't clench.
that picture really resonates with me. i wish it didn't, but i feel like that sometimes. pain is a harsh world, isn't it?
i'm sure you'll do GREAT at your student teaching. i just know it.
I teach part-time, and, really, there is nothing to be frightened about. If you don't know something, all you have to say is "I don't know!" If you are not sure, "I'm not sure" works well. Then, in both cases, you find out. Or, heck, you can use it as impetus to start a discussion.
(And the rest, when you do know and when you are sure, is even easier.)
Cheers!
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