Sunny Day & The Flu

I'm so excited -- the yellow ball in the sky returned!!! It had been such a long time. I was so happy to see my friend and the blue sky the other day that I actually cleaned out my car to celebrate. This energized me so much that I went home during my lunch hour and cleaned off the kitchen table, the counter, and a cabinet out! My house has become way too cluttered during this winter doldrum of work, school, pain, and flu. Anyway, I happy to see my friend the sun -- it has been 3 days straight that I've had sightings!

I think my personal Easter season fog was getting to me as of late. I associate the loss of my Mom with the Easter season more than the actual date on the calendar when I lost her. She always loved the Easter season so I'm hoping to grow out of dreading it as the years pass. Her favorite mass was the Easter Vigil mass because you got all these brand new Catholics shining their lights bright to energize us all. What a cool perspective on such a long mass :-)

I lost her just as that mass would have been starting that Saturday night. I can't believe it has been three years. I think it will be a long time before I can attend that particular mass. I'm working my way back into the church... I have been disenchanted with the changes over the past year in my diocese. I don't like changes that distance the parishioners from the mass. I also have to admit I'm really struggling with the additional kneeling time required now that lay people. I loved when our local parish had more lay people involved with the mass. I think they did it respectfully and with reverence. I am insulted the Cardinal thought otherwise and it has made attending mass more of a chore than I want it to be.

I don't know about anyone else, but the gray days have been enough to freeze me in my tracks -- all I wanted to do was hibernate. I think my flu is finally somewhat in check. I still fear food, but have found that the Propel "fitness water" by Gatorade has re hydrated me) without the ill affects I was getting from water! How the heck could this have started Sunday and stayed with me ALL WEEK? I'm fine if I don't eat or drink.

I saw a wonderful sunset last night. I will post pictures tonight or tomorrow. It is family game night so I may not have time.... That and who knows who will get the flu next? It is mean and sudden this flu -- lots of house cleaning results.