Baby Steps

Tomorrow I go to my mother inlaw's home for a baby shower for Hubby's sister. I want to spend time in the lion's den like I want to stick a fork in my eye. Things are a little tense for me when it comes to the inlaws because I resent them for our present situation.

Hubby is struggling to find a job. As we look toward summer daycare costs I'm sad to realize that we would be financially ahead of the game to skip daycare for the kids and have Hubby stay home with them while collecting unemployment. How sad is it that daycare is so expensive that it pays better to stay home than to work? Strange, but true. And so, the struggle is to find a job that pays well enough. I'm a little over a year from being a teacher. I can't wait to be on the same schedule as my kids.

So tomorrow is the baby shower. I am happy to have another neice on the way. 2 of the 3 babies due in the next 6 weeks are known to be girls. I wonder what gender mystery baby will be? I'm hoping boy -- it would be fun to have my sister chasing a mega active boy! I look forward to watching 3 first time moms taking their baby steps into motherhood.

I'm scattered right now as I try to ease hubby into this career change. It is difficult putting pressure on someone who is doing his best to keep all parties happy. He is realizing that treading water won't cut it. I'm so sorry he has to go through this. He is a wonderful man. I wonder how he was born to people who would eat their young? He is taking baby steps. I hope they pay off soon.

Tomorrow I will smile and bite my tongue. I will not allow my mother inlaw (Satan) to bait me. I will remember who I am dealing with. I am strong. I am invincible. I am woman.

Happy Mother's Day!